Humanity is so wondrous and amazing. At times, I catch myself mesmerized by things I once thought so trite. For example, the ability of my fingers to flutter at not even a moment’s thought is fascinating to me at this very moment. Likewise, the ability I have to inhale air into my lungs which fuels the life of my body, too, is amazing. However, both these activities are more than simply amazing, they are also something that is not guaranteed. I have full faculties intact in terms of my nervous system and sensory organs, but it is not as if that had to be the case.
Yet, I, and I assume others like myself, seldom pause to reflect on this amazing fact. There are countless people in the world who cannot even move their eyelids and thereby, in a state of complete paralysis, remain blind to the world. Yet, perhaps, it is I, and I assume many others, who are the ones actually blind to the world. As stated before, humanity is wondrous and amazing from head to toe, from poetry to prose, from luminous paintings to lucid sculptures, from hardworking business men to giddy indolent childish boys. Yet, the one thing that amazes even me is our ability to complain and, thereby, not truly appreciate what we have.
Now, that is not to say that all complaining is bad. For I believe, if there is no complaint, then there can be no advancement. In order to advance, humanity must look back at what it does have and thereafter decide to want something beyond the current circumstance. I suppose that somewhere in the infancy of our species to modern times that in-between what one had and what one wanted there likely was a complaint immersed in the middle. We as a species had to complain about being nomadic hunter-gathers in order to become semi-sedentary horticulturalists. We as a species had to complain about the toil of dragging wild game, heavy branches, and even ourselves through the coarse grounds, in order to inspire the ingenuity to create the lever, the pulley, and the wheel. We as a species had to complain about individualized labor inefficiencies in order to create a compartmentalized efficacious society. Thus, perhaps 1) complaint simply is and always has been a human trait or 2) there is some sort of genetic evolutionary benefit to complaint that developed and still survives in our species today.
With that said, I think, no I insist, that even amongst our complaints, we as a species must also be appreciative. The truth is that most people, especially those in America, are extremely blessed. Therefore, I find no fault with complaints about a fairly weak 5.2 earthquake in Virginia, and I find no fault with complaints about an Atlantic hurricane that extended along the east coast delaying flights from New York to the District of Columbia. I, however, do find fault when those same people puff up their cheeks like Chicken Little and unyieldingly declare that “the world is coming to an end” or that such event is “a sign of the end times.” Now, I am truly sorry that the earthquake in Virginia caused some people to stumble, cars to fumble, and a few buildings to crumble, but I do not mumble when I say that it did not cause one single death as to humans. Furthermore, I am truly sorry that Hurricane Irene caused a few billion in damages and the loss of 45 American lives. Yet, one must put into context and take some sort of consideration of what transpired in Haiti, Japan, and Indonesia when viewing these events.
How arrogant and insipidly foolish does it become to think that civilization as we know it is ending because of a little 5.2 earthquake in Virginia that killed not a single person when over 16,000 died in Japan, over 100,000 died in Haiti, and over 200,000 in the Indonesia and its bordering countries from much larger and much more devastating earthquakes. How arrogant and naïve it is to base the existence and continuance of the entire world, consisting of 196 countries, off of one country, the United States of America.
Now, I am not claiming that all complaints are that wild and outlandish as to involve the actual upheaval and destruction of world as we know it, but I am asking that we bring our complaints down to earth. For example, I hear people complain about the recession. Now, I believe the complaint is incredibly reasonable, but at least appreciate that this is a country where there exists actually hope to climb out of the slump and, even with the slump, the standard of living is still better than 99 percent of all other countries. When I think of the burden I, and many others carry, I realize it pales in comparison to the burden faced by many others in this country whose burden, likewise, pales in comparison to many others in this world.
Yet, isn’t it such a striking dichotomy, and I base this off of life experiences, that the ones with the least amount seem to be amongst the most appreciative. I’ve seen, personally, those with hardly any clothes to wear, without electricity, without clean water, without infrastructure, without access to proper medical care, without the things that I have and have had my whole life, be more content and more appreciative of life than I am. Amongst whatever little things they have and the numerous things that they do not, they remained thankful and full of praise. Further, I have seen documentaries, read news stories, and kept my ears open to the stories of countless others who remained incalcitrantly full of a high spirited positive outlook on life when it seemed like, based on their life, that they should be the first ones wreathing in dirt filled bitterness and insatiably full of grievances.
I, for one, am beyond humbled by the example of life that they showed me. Whenever I feel sad, lonely, stressed, or am experiencing other forms of discontent, I remind myself of the optimistic life that they live. If even one of them could remain appreciative when iniquity seemed to be the one and only thing that correlated with their existence, then why can’t I remain appreciative too when I face so much less.
As stated before, humanity is wondrous and amazing. Moreover, we as individuals only have once chance to experience the wonders and amazement of humanity on this planet. Therefore, I urge that in our relatively short time on this planet that we recognize this, turn from our complaining ways, and become ambassadors and diplomats of the beauty of life by remaining appreciative in the good as well as the bad times. Thus, although I advise you to take time and smell the roses, more importantly, I advise you to appreciate the wonderful fact that you even can.
Black History Month:The Darknessbeneath those Mountainous Clouds
An arm slowly reached from the right side of the bed, and with a delicate flick of the wrist, turned off the alarm clock on the adjacent desk. The time read 7:30 a.m. when the siren ceased. The hand then coiled back in like a serpent, grabbed the blanket, pulled the blanket over its head, and went back to sleep. The hand belonged to Malcolm Booker. Booker was 17 years old and, on the first day of February, he was not getting out of his bed.
“Malcolm! Will you get your black ass, up boy. You got class today.” Malcolm’s body jolted from the scream and he sullenly stared at his mom. She had just come back from her night shift at the hospital and was still in uniform, although her eyes appeared tired, her voice perforated through the room. It was stern. It was upset. It was a voice that would not take no for an answer. However, Malcolm, as he began to pull the blanket over his body again, insisted on putting it to the test.
“Mom, I’m tired, won’t you just let me get a little extra sleep. It’s just one day, and I feel sick.” The words came out of Malcolm slowly, and he placed his hands on his head to emphasize his ill feelings.
“Boy, don’t lie to me. It is 7:45! School starts in 45 minutes. Get up, and get your behind to school young man!” Her voice was even sterner. Indignation was not an answer.
Malcolm opened his mouth to say yes, but before the words could leave his tongue, his mom had slammed the room door and the only sound that could be heard in the room was her footsteps heavily plodding on the wooden floor as she walked away. Malcolm took a deep breath. He did not want to go to school. As he got out of bed, he put on the radio. The radio station man was loud and cheering. The voice on the radio boomed with elation that today was the beginning of Black History month.
Malcolm did not smile upon hearing this. He did not frown either. His eyes remained tired and although he attempted to cover his mouth, a yawn escaped. He reached down at a wrinkled black shirt and pair of blue jeans that were lying on the floor. These would be his clothes for today. He put them on quickly, school would start soon. He was going to be late.
As he walked through the hall, he saw his mom asleep on the green couch in the living room facing towards the television. The tv was off, of course. His mom couldn’t afford to pay the television bills. The only entertainment in the living room was the drippings that came from the ceiling and plopped into the rusty tin bucket on the floor below. His mom lay there asleep, the bags under her eyes more profuse and a noticeably stream of gray swimming down her hair. She worked so hard. She worked so hard and they could barely afford to get by. She worked so hard and on the table by her Malcolm noticed a crumpled paper with what faintly looked like ‘Last Notice: Rent-Past-Due’ poking out. Malcolm grabbed the last piece of bread, peeled green off its side, and exited the door.
The air outside was chilly. Clouds covered the night sky like aerial mountains that were moments away from shedding tears on the cracked sidewalks and pot-holed streets below; the only vegetation were the weeds that grew out of the cement. Malcolm’s school was only a couple of blocks away. However, those blocks were plagued with gangs. A few of Malcolm’s friends had been beaten up. Malcolm never went that way. If he did go that way, he would arrive at school 5 minutes early and not the 15 minutes late that he knew he would arrive. Malcolm looked up to the sky, a tinge of sunlight extended in the horizon through the mountainous clouds. It was far from him, like it always was, and he could not feel it. February 1st was just a day like all others.
Malcolm trekked through the streets. He was passing through the alleys, and heard a questioning voice echoing from the shadows.
“You got some, homie?”
“Naa, not today dude. You still owe me from last time.” Malcolm said as he kept walking. The voice from the shadows eerily bellowed, “C’mon, I need some...” Malcolm kept walking as he heard scratching echo from out of the alley. “Please! Please!” the voice became more and more shrill. Malcolm put on his head phones and kept walking.
“Crack heads”, he sighed. “I need find another way to school” he muttered under his breath.
Malcolm arrived outside gates of his high school. There were bars on the windows, and the school was completely enclosed within a thick gate with the central door locked behind a chain of bars. The security guard let him inside the bars, and then locked the chains behind him. The security guard never said hello. Malcolm was unsure if he even looked at him, or, instead like a 6’4 automaton, was just going through the motions. The security guard lifted up a cigarette to his face, placed it on his big lips, and lit it with a lighter. He exhaled as the wind caused the smoke to slowly envelope him.
“What the fuck you lookin at nigga?” the security guard barked as he took in another breath of his cigarette.
“Nu—nu—nothing,” Malcom, stammered. He pulled his bag pack above his shoulders and began walking towards the cylindrical cement stairs that led into the school. As he stepped onto the stairs, he looked back at the security guard. As the smoke from his cigarette cleared and as he pulled the cigarette from his mouth down to his blue pants, Malcolm could see his sullen face. His furrowed forehead seemed to match the mountainous cloud. The nappiness of his hair extended from the top of his head and was sprouting across his cheeks, chin, and mouth of his face as though he were trying hiding himself in a forest. He stared up as though in hope that the tears from the sky would water his face and finally allow him to disappear under the forest. This was not the life he had wanted. He probably had imagined something better for his life than this. Something better than smoking cigarettes on a cold February 1st day. “Today’s just another day,” Malcolm said to himself as he walked through the door of the school. He was 20 minutes late.
Malcolm walked through the hallway. The ceiling lights arranged in a row in the hallway flickered on and off leaving the hallway dimly lit. The school was one story high. The white paint was chipping across the walls, and the east most corner of the hall was blocked off with yellow caution tape. Apparently, it was a fire hazard. Malcolm could hear his own footsteps as he walked across the gravel floor. A ‘Warning: Wet Floor’ sign sat by the wall outside his classroom. Malcolm shook his head. The floor wasn’t wet today. The floor hadn’t been wet since it rained 2 weeks ago. The floor was marked with the now dried footsteps of the over 2,000 students who attended the school. Yet, this yellow sign, like always, lay there. It was just another day.
Before Malcolm opened the door to enter his classroom he noticed something old that had not been there before. It was posted sloppily across the brick wall. It looked like it had been pulled out from the depths of the school attic. It was losing coloration as patches of spotted yellow spread across it whiteness. It was torn on the top of its right corner. It’s words difficult to read due to dulling discoloration and years of unfolding and refolding. It read “Happy Black History Month Students.” Malcolm opened the door and entered the classroom.
The teacher glanced at him as he entered. She was holding up a picture of someone. As Malcolm moved towards the back of his desk, the picture became less and less visible until it was just a blur of colors that he could barely see in front of the head in front of him. This class was too crowded.
“Does anyone know who this?” the teacher implored. The class was silent. “Anyone?”
“We can’t see it. Why don’t you pass it around” a voice exclaimed.
“Ok, I will.” She passed the picture to a boy in the front desk. The boy, doodling on a piece of paper, just as quickly passed it to the desk behind. “That picture is of Thurgood Marshall. He was the lawyer in Brown v. Board of Education. Does anyone know what that case held, and why it’s such a special case for us?” The teacher asked. A black hand raised in the air to answer the question. “Yes, Jazzmine, who is he?” the teacher asked with a smile.
“That case umm held that separate is not equal and that we can’t be segregated in schools and stuff” Jazzmine replied.
“That is correct Jazzmine, and on this month we must celebrate black leaders like Mr. Marshall who made such a difference for us.” the teacher smiled. A few other black faces smiled. Most of the black faces looked bored. The room was only full of black faces. Malcolm glanced at the picture of Thurgood Marshall, and then passed it to the black girl in front of him. He looked around the room, and then out the cracked window and the bars that covered it. Today was just another day.
As the bell rang for the period to be over, Malcolm finished texting on his phone, and walked out into the hall. The hallway amidst its dim lights seemed even dimmer as the darkness of the students encroached as they exited their classes. Malcolm grasped his bag and headed for his next class.
“Yo what up bruh?, a voice jovially stated. Malcolm turned around to see his friend Andre.
“What up Dre” Malcolm responded as they exchanged handshakes. “I’m just heading to my locker”
“Did you see that new bitch, Tamara, she’s hella fine my dude,” Andre exclaimed.
“No, I didn’t see her,” Malcolm coldly said. The dullness of Andre’s words pushed Malcolm’s feet faster and faster as he moved towards his locker.
“Well, I’m gonna take her down first, you can hop on that train after I do,” Andre yelled down the hallway as Malcolm continued to walk away. “Damn, my nigga, why you walking so fast?”
Andre’s words did not reach Malcolm’s ears. At best, they reached Malcolm’s feet. If so, perhaps Malcolm’s quick footsteps away were attempts to stomp away every vestige of Andre’s words.
Malcolm turned left down the hallway corridor, and walked to his bottom on the right corner buried in the shadows. He turned his locker combination, 6-18-27, and put his books away except one. In the middle of his Economics book he surreptitiously placed a bag of white powder and then pushed the book into the depths of his locker. The blue rusted paint peeled away as Malcolm closed his locker door. His locker once again, remained in the shadows, its contents too. February 1st was just another day.
Malcolm began to walk away to his next class. The black faces in the hallways became a blur as he walked. Malcolm walked into his classroom and sat down. Some of his classmates said hello to him and some waved. Others did nothing at all. Most of them seemed content to be in a History class. Most of them were eager to learn. Malcolm pulled out the one ragged thick book from his backpack; its last page read, ‘Y2K is a crisis without precedent in human history.’ All of them were using an outdated textbook.
“Class, turn to page 222 in your books, today we are going to talk about Malcolm X” Mr. Freeman declared. Mr. Freeman was an old-school teacher. He wore a large thick afro sprinkled with gray, and always kept on a thin pair of bifocals which leaned down his wide noise. His head was forever furrowed and two bags were plopped under his eyes. Beneath his eyes, nose, and lips, Mr. Freeman wore a black plaid shirt and black pants and a faded pair of black sneakers. A student in the back, with page 222 proudly open, raised his hand. “Yes, Mr. Mathias, what do you have to tell the class.”
“Well, there is only a couple sentences about him, but it says he was an Muslim African-American leader and that he was murdered in 1965” Mathias shyly exclaimed. Mathias was wrong. There were exactly 3 sentences about Malcolm X in this book. Martin Luther King Jr. had 5 sentences in the book which left him tied with Benedict Arnold. Ronald Reagan had 88 sentences.
“That’s right Mathias,” Mr. Freeman sighed. “Unfortunately, these textbooks don’t tell you much, but that’s why I’m here.” Mr. Freeman’s voice began to rise as pride began to fill it. “Now, Malcolm was a real radical brotha, he said that the oppressor would never let the oppressed people truly be free.” Mr. Freeman pulled out an old book, adjusted his bifocals with his right hand, and began reading aloud to the class, “ Now, brotha Malcolm said, ‘We have to keep in mind at all times that we are not fighting for integration, nor are we fighting for separation. We are fighting for recognition...for the right to live as free humans in this society.’”
Malcolm eyes began to drift away as the teacher’s words crossed his path. The words were heavy. Malcolm looked around the room. Some students were engaged, and some were not. The kid in the back wasn’t engaged at all; his head lay flat on the desk and his eyes closed. Perhaps, Malcolm X’s words made him want to dream. Perhaps, the words simply bored him to sleep. Perhaps the words had no effect at all. Malcolm didn’t know either way, so he turned his gaze to the clock hanging above the blackboard. The hands of the clock spun like they always did. Whether it was January, February, or March, April, May, or any other month, the hands of this gray round old decrepit clock were always the same. Sometimes, he wished that that the hands would turn into something else, anything else. If they turned into something else, at least it wouldn’t just be the same. If they turned into something else, he would know what the time is, but, at least, maybe he would not know what to expect. Malcolm put away his outdated textbook, looked at the sea of black students in his class including the kid sleeping, and then fixed his gaze on the barred window full of soot and bathed in oxidized paint chips. Mountainous clouds still extended in the horizon with a bead of light extending far in the distance. Even the light seemed to be trying to escape this place. February 1st was just another day.
When the bell finally rang for class, Malcolm quickly got up from his seat and headed for the door. Mr. Freeman gave him a head nod, but Malcolm’s head was too focused towards the door to notice. It was lunch time, but Malcolm had seen the light, and like the light was making his escape. He was going home.
“Where you goin?” a loud voice bellowed as Malcolm reached the outer school gates. Malcolm turned around to see the security guard hovering over him.
“I’m going home, I’m not feeling very well,” Malcolm sheepishly uttered.
“You look fine to me,” the security guard calmly said as he unlocked the gate. “No, need to lie. Shit, I don’t want to be in this motherfucker either. ”
“Yeah,” Malcolm muttered as he exited the gates, put his hands in his pocket, lowered his head and began to walk away. He looked back at the security guard, who was now haplessly sitting on the ground, and then continued to walk away towards his home. The wind seemed to push him toward his home and the whispering of the leaves lulled his body into complacence. He didn’t notice the pouty mountainous clouds. Nor did he notice the gray cement speckled with dying weeds. Nor did he notice that the gray cement path on which he was walking was led straight to the alley shadows. Nor did he notice he heavy maniacal breathing of a shrill voice in those shadows. Nor did he notice the hand in the shadows firmly gripping a 12 inch long dagger. Nor, most importantly of all, did he notice that he left his Economics book in his locker.
Malcolm Booker was 17 years old when he died. He was killed in broad daylight on a February 1st afternoon. There was no suspect. There was no witness. There was hardly an investigation. The autopsy report read that he was stabbed 18 times: 6 times in the neck, 6 times in the stomach, and 6 times in the heart. His death would have made the news if it was not for Lindsay Lohan’s drunken night in Hollywood, the 38 percent chance of rain in Los Angeles, and the lost puppy in Malibu. February 1st was just another day, and the rest of the month promised to be just the same.
Yet, I, and I assume others like myself, seldom pause to reflect on this amazing fact. There are countless people in the world who cannot even move their eyelids and thereby, in a state of complete paralysis, remain blind to the world. Yet, perhaps, it is I, and I assume many others, who are the ones actually blind to the world. As stated before, humanity is wondrous and amazing from head to toe, from poetry to prose, from luminous paintings to lucid sculptures, from hardworking business men to giddy indolent childish boys. Yet, the one thing that amazes even me is our ability to complain and, thereby, not truly appreciate what we have. 
